With little to say.

Tomorrow’s the last day of the prelims and well, I guess it started well but isn’t ending very well.
I am taking it easy today because I just feel so.. tired.
Just partially tired of doing questions.
Mental exhaustion is still tolerable.

The days are eventually getting better.
Better compared to all the anxiety I had the previous week and I feel like I’m putting a lot of unnecessary pressure on myself. (I still am.)
Happens because I overthink certain things.
And well, more than half the time, I don’t feel like I’m doing good enough.
I don’t want to be a disappointment to anyone, especially myself.

And I guess even when times are tough, there comes a point where things just can’t get any worse.
That’s when things will eventually start to get better.
Hopefully it stays neutral at the very least for most of the times for now.
I can’t handle extremes very well.

 

Renewed strength

And though it was a short just a little over 2 hours,
I’m really glad I got to see you. :)

Prelims start, tomorrow.
Life is just about to get a little crazier as A levels draw near.
I feel immune to papers.
It’s just the fatigue and stress and pressure that I’m dreading.
But I’ll make it through alright.

 

Just this feeling

Oh yes,
Anybody dreading tomorrow, say “I!”
Heh.

 

Don’t tell me.

Thinking about it now, I can’t believe what I’ve done for the past two days.
Because for the past two mornings I woke up at 4 odd to ‘finish’ revision.
Still, I didn’t manage to complete revision for Bio and Phy.
It’s especially today, there were the times I felt like I might drop.
Times I imagine myself fainting.
I thought I’d fall asleep while I stood in the bus.
And I thought I was burning up during Physics.
Tskkkk.

But I’m strongggg okay.
With that amount of sleep, even my mother will think I’m crazy.
Of course my ability to analyse and think is sabotaged buttttt.
I did my best at that point of time.
Now I really wonder how my brother could go without sleep at all before. Geez.

Sigh.
Two math papers to gooooo.
That ends Prelims.

Woah.

 

Just the next 24 hours

Tomorrow, I’ll drop dead.
I’m quite positive about that.
I think I was just this close to being a zombie today.
And I’m still really caught up with one of the stupidest mistakes I’ve made today.
Sometimes I think I might kill myself for the mistakes I make.

Now I hope I can hold out till tomorrow.

 

I’ll walk on broken glass

Did you have a good nightt?
Well, I didn’t. x.x
I’m not sure the number of times I woke up, but it was such a spoiler.
Probably because Jack took my pillow from meeee.
I was thinking of staying awake by the time I woke up at 0400.
But I forced myself back to sleep in the end, cos every Saturday got study dateeeee.

The most amazing thing was, I finished the whole series of an anime yesterday.
I don’t know whether to feel guilty about it or not.
Didn’t touch any books at all. :D
Well it was something nice and sweet, kept me wanting to watch on.
And yet to think I had better control of my tears already.
Sigh.

As for prelims.
I can’t remember the last time I felt confident for my Amath paper.
Should be just last year I guess.
After the papers got more challenging this year, before the paper itself, I already have a certain mentality that restricts myself.
Ah welll,
It’s consecutive days for the three sciences after this week.

Not a good sign.
But it’ll be a one week study breakkkk.
Use it welllllll!

 

Saved, just before midnight.

Sometimes, I really don’t know what I’m doing.
Gets pretty crazy some of those times too.

And if it’s not you, then maybe it’ll be just me.
But it’s always during the examination period, I just want to leave for somewhere else.

I still have Joey’s message from 19 August.
And maybe I won’t delete it till the end of Os.
It reads, “Physics rocks.“
With a Lol at the back but that doesn’t matter.
The thing is it came from her.
Laughs
Worth keeping. B)
Let’s go badminton soon okayyyyy.

And ay, jiayou Geography studentttts!

 

Who ever believes?

I came home, feeling hungry.
With heavy eyelids.
And a troubled soul.

Well not exactly, but you get itttt.
And my finger tips are still icy.

How now brown cow.
Tomorrow got Chinese.
I haven’t touched it since. Chinese listening.
Since it was the last paper.

Die die die die die.

 

Can we fast-forward?

Morrrrrrrning!

Even now, I still can’t believe it’s Tuesday.
Because I have less than 24 hours.
I’m going to wake up tomorrow, and go to school for my prelims.
Social studies.
The one you write till your hand feels like it’s gonna die with the lack of oxygen in the cells.
English.
The one you don’t have anything you can expect.
It doesn’t work no matter how I tell myself, “I have prelims tomorrowww.”
Because I just don’t believe it.
I sound like an idiot.

Anywayyyyyyyy.
Can’t wait for the holidays to be here.

Do you knowwwww,
Yesterday, past the morning, was such a beautiful day.
Although it was actually studying with FY, but there’s so much more to it.
And I came home with left over adrenaline.
Felt like I could almost fly because I felt happpy.
What a great way to end the month, don’t you think. :D

 

Lost, already.

I shouldn’t have started on the card so late.
Shouldn’t have gone to Muji.

Sigh.

Muji was such a disappointment today.
I think I’ll never go to the one at Bugis anymore.
And that’s because they didn’t have the Black pens nor refills that I wanted.
Thanks for working on me, Murphy.

As for the card for laoshi.
I couldn’t come up with anything.
And what moreeeeee, I slept at noon since physics papers were like a bedtime story.

Feels like an eeky day.

I’m only happy with my peanut butter cake.
Which tastes quite not bad.
Even my brother said so okay. :B
And my mother praised me for doing the dishes.
Actually I’m just happy I did it, because it means I helped my parents.
At least I did righttt.

So, it’s already a brand new day.
Prelims in how many days again?
Heh.
I don’t feel, anything, yet.
Gonna wake up early early tomorrowwww.

Yknw yknw.
I think I’ll call my book Murphy. :D