How could ‘forget’ be in the dictionary.

My head’s not functioning right.
I’m just afraid I start sprouting nonsense and say things I shouldn’t be saying.
Heh.

Friday the 13th was, how do I put it.
Numbed in a certain way.
It’s now 01:23 and I still don’t feel that the Os are really over.
Totally saw it coming anyway, since the past few, days, weeks, haven’t been the usual.
So when the O’s were really over, I couldn’t feel anything.

But still I had fun.
Eh I can’t believe the people in class left almost straight after the paper, then cannot take class photo lor.
Or okay. Maybe I just thought people would stay.
I was wrong.

I remember walking alot, and after which I remember freezing. :X
Spent the day with FY and we went from Ion to Plaza to Vivo.
It was good time off from everything in general.

Crap, I can’t think. :(
But I’ll still leave this,

Pardon me, it doesn’t look as awesome as it should be.
Or how I wanted it to be. x.x

 

Fillers, they call it.

It’s coming to an end really soon.
And after today I can finally breathe.
Maybe sleep better too.
Guess it was because of the stress, I wake countless of times at night.
I was dizzy after Biology paper II ended just now.
Felt that I wouldn’t be able to walk straight.
Hah.

Come to think of it, christmas is comingg.
Just don’t think about another whole new year starting.
Mmmm.

Should I head to the library tonight?
I ought to go swimming soon.
Brother should be treating Mom and I to astons soon, I think.
Maybe I should do jogging too.
Hmmm.
Should I not turn up to retake Chinese?

The main point is.
It’ll be a great feeling when the Os are over.
But I have to say though it’s too late, I wasn’t at my peak.

 

With a reason

Well, it’s Thurrrrrrrrrsday!
(I was wondering to drag the r or s. Heh)

Through the past few days I can only conclude that Math is draining, exhausting, and whatever other words you can find.

In simple terms, it’s tiring.
Partly because it’s so tedious.
I remember looking at a question yesterday and sighing because I felt lazy to go on.
But I had to go on, now that made the difference.

I realised that the liking for Math in my family is sort of, in the blood. B)
Because only yesterday did I know that Mom loves Math and Chemistry and hates Physics.
Same for brother.
Same for me.
Hoho.

 

Ruse of silence.

I don’t know why I’m here.

Yesterday was, quite an experience.
Heh.
And I don’t like my examiners but I won’t say anything more.

I’m pretty glad English is over.
But I can’t quite believe that, that was my only chance in determining my grade.
It’s not like Chinese, there’s no retake.
So at the end of it, everything felt so crappy.
It’s overrrr, it’s over.

Could feel the unpleasant atmosphere after Paper One outside the hall.
And while everyone felt shitty in a way or another, it was funny hearing Mrs R say,
“Go in and break a leg.” while we were entering the hall for Paper Two.
Yeah, so we all went in to break our legs.

The teachers sure compile all our stress and have it on themselves.
Ms H has to take it for 4 days. :/

Anywayyyyy,
I wanted to thank Juniors and even Seniors who were so awesome to send wishes.
Including own classmates too that is.
It caught me by surprise since, it’s just Os.
And I guess I ought to stop saying that and see Os as something more, crucial.
But thanks anyway, because it really was an encouragement.

Mmmmm. :D

 

Poison sets in.

Best of luck

to everyone tackling the Os starting tomorrow.
Which is just about a few minutes from now.
Alittle more than 12 hours from now.
Heh.

When I looked at the clock at 1400 earlier today, I couldn’t believe I had less than 24 hours to my first paper.
Yeah time flew.
Before I knew it, the 2 weeks of study leave just went by.
And it was Friday when I went, “Shit, Friday.”

Had things to attend to at Malaysia then.
And it was quite an experience, being the first time I attended a funeral.
Even though I was a distant relative, I could feel the agony.
And it heartwrenching.
Supposedly had much to talk about that day, but I guess I’ll skip it.

Hmmm.
When O’s start, it’ll end just like study leave did.
Just like how school holidays used to end.
Like how prelims came and gone.

How will you take up this fight?

Maybe you could end it with something like that,

 

Overwhelming currents

All the best

to those taking Practicals tomorrow later.

Maybe especially to Joey.
Heh. B)

Come to think of it, we’ve been ranting quite a bit to each other almost every single day.
We rant about how studying is boring and almost impossible to do at home.
We rant about how O levels kinda suck because we have to force ourselves to study.
We rant about how we aren’t confident about certain subjects.
We rant about how we might just totally screw the whole thing up.
Things like that.

Though I seriously doubt that the two sessions I had with her helped her much, but yeah.
She’d do fine I believe.

And as Ms N said today,
Don’t give up, don’t give up.
Though it may be overused.
Guess those three words still does hold it’s power.
She isn’t the only one that has said it.

 

We’ll meet again.

So I’ve just finished my novel.
And I loved the story.
It kept me, how do you say it. At the edge of my seat?
Definitely in suspense.

Alright, no more novels now, I shall return them all and borrow none.
Till the end of Os then.
Sigh.

Oh and last night seem to mark the start of the sleepless nights.

 

Last song ever.

I can’t wait for Olevels to be over but yet I don’t exactly want it to come.
Do you know that feeling?

With just only the few days left, sometimes I can’t really believe it.
But all that’s always on my mind is what’s happening after Os.
All the celebration and plans.
But will I be in the state for celebration?
That’s a point to consider.
And I’ll be choosing how it’ll all go.

Mugging is mundane.
I don’t like the word itself.
Don’t like the process.

Though I never used to be a reader, recently, I’ve picked up novels.
And I started liking what I read.
I’d go for novels now, instead for textbooks.
And being a slow reader for a start, I waste most of the time.

So how now.

I feel put at a spot.
Tell me why, I want to do something but I can’t get around to doing it.
What’s that wall built up there, I haven’t climbed over?

I just don’t really like imagining people rejoicing on Results day, and I won’t.

Heh okay, time to stop it.
And that sounded selfish.
Anyway, it’s getting late!

 

It’s like one step forward and two steps back.

All the best, all the best! :D

Hoho, majority from class is having English orals today.
My apologies for having sat in class comfortably and laughing.
After today you guys will feel the same thing too for the last few from class! :X
But yeah, as everyone around me got nervous, I did feel it too.
Then I was glad mine was all over long ago.

You know what matters?
It’s because I believe they all will be able to do well and converse.
So hopefully the nerves die off.
And I hope hope hope, it all goes well. :D

Tellllll me how it all went!

 

Silence would be enough.

Credits to Claire for the flower! :B
&Really really, I’m so happy for so many of you for your results! :D

I’ve never really been away but in anycase, I guess I’m back here. Heh.
Take it as it was a hazy period here.

It amazes me how people can stay away from the computer.
After all prelims are coming and everything.
They leave their computer shut most of the time.
I don’t exactly use it most of the time since my brother’s home and all butttt, I still use it, quite, often, I guess.
Seldom compared to before! :/

The only dilemma for me recently, was whether to retake the Chinese papers again.
Because of that dumb dumb durian, distinction.
But let’s not talk about that.

Flag day exactly one week ago was a good experience.
I’ll actually keep this short because I could rant forever.
Though everyone started being skeptical after a period of time, I guess it was only because our heels were aching.
Because some folks apparently, were.. alittle too cynical.
I shrugged them away till it was all over at least.
I’m so sorry to say this but I really prefer Bishan to TPY.
The meal times were a joy. Hah.

After-which my concession died some time in the week.
I was unaware of it and I didn’t have sufficient coins.
Luckily for Celeste who was in the bus and I could borrow 20 centttts.
Or else ah, hmmm.
I wonder.
Probably have to go around asking for change.
And that’d give me a not-very-nice-feeling.
I mean.. It’s just uncomfortable.
The out of comfort zone kind.

Met Ms N on Tuesday too for help with Oral.
And I was really glad I did because I had a better understanding of how to go about picture discussion.
Ms N repeatedly warns us how Oral will give a one grade jump or a one grade fall.
I was wondering if that was quite demanding, for oral to decide a whole grade.
But I guess it was only just.. yeah.
Acceptable.
Ms N always has drama classes in the afternoon and you see her commitment when she’s willing to spare us time after drama.
And how much she worries and is willing to help.
Almost, just almost, reminded me of Ms G.
But Ms N is sweet, that can’t be anymore true.

And so, it was oral yesterday.
Just Beverly and I from our class being the last 2.
Its quite, i-don’t-know when everyone in class can be all relaxed and wish you all the best.

It was shivering cold in ITR2, I wanted to pee by the time there was 2 left before me.
And Mrs R toooo.
You should see how much stress is on her while we take our orals.
The other day she couldn’t walk properly!
And it’s draining to be stressed, really.
Imagine when it’s time for us to take our papers.
Heh.
But she was really nice, she came in twice to check if we were doing alright and if we had questions or anything.

Anyway, to kill time and rid nervousness, Beverly and I kept talking about common topics that may come out.
From maids to the elderly to HIV to Pre-marital sex to advanced technologies to foreign talent to overseas studies to fitness and to the most random things that came to mind.
And of course the more personal ones like a time when you were embarrassed, disappointed, upset, angry, mistaken, happy, guilty, regretful and alll that crap.
It was until Ms S came over to us and said,
“I didn’t know the two of you could talk so much.”
We still continued talking of course.

But tell you somethinggggggg, in the end right, I was nervous, I can’t deny.
Heh.
And I spoke like a bullet train.
I thought I was gonna kill myself when I left that room.

If you guys need to know, the whole theme was about disabled people.
Mmmm.

Keep practicing everyone!
And always have ideas in your mind.
Oh and common mispronounced words right, do be careful about words like Buoy, Cocoa, Chaffeur, Doubt.
Will leave more when it comes to mind!

I’d also say that I prefer not being the first few because it’s just, not the same.

Always find time to Stop and smell the roses!
Even Ms N recommends Up. :D

Now, back to homework weekendddd.

 

Better than the best.

“I feel like laughing.”
Common phrase everytime I’m out with FY.

[It just came to my realisation that's it's national day alreadyyyyy. O: Woah, woah.]

Going onnnnn,
I think it’s really funny to actually have an urge to laugh.
Sometimes you just need to, especially when sentences can have totally different meanings with words of the same pronunciation.

“Does this look like U?”

I still can picture it in my head, the immediate reaction of bursting out into laughter.

Suddenly I don’t know how to go on. :(

There were many usuals, consisting of things people may not understand nor appreciate but means something to us.
I’m always guilty of rantinggg.
How horrible.
But at least talk talk talk, still got study.
That’s the whole point rightttt.
Enjoy your study journey to the Os, because nothing could be better than thissss.

Heres just one Usual,
Getting back at each other with each other’s techniques.
It’s badddddddd.
Later run out of techniques already.
Must come up with one she can’t use. :P

Nothing special these days at Macssss.
Just really cute children.
I like most of their eyes and the innocence they have.
I like how they get to feel.
Sometimes I really ask myself why I wanted to grow up faster when I was much youngerrr.

Chinese O’s results released in a few days time.
It’s not that I’m not afraid.
But I know the limits to my capabilities, so I guess I can assume where my grade’s around.
Maybe those are limits I put on myself, however they’ve been there since the start.
It’s too late already.
What’s left is to prepare for the worst.
That’s just how to get through for now.

But don’t fret okayyyy, especially FY!
It’ll all be okay.
Try try, just leave it aside first. :D
It won’t killll.
Since the clock continues ticking even when it seems to have stopped, choose how you’d like to receive your results.
Mmm.
Then in the end life goes on.
Go, go, go. ^^

I’m still in the mood for Up, I keep thinking about it with Russell’s voice ringing in my head.
I want to watch it againnnn.

 

Without words leave you helpless.

You should feel the relief after the Biology test was over.
It was only then I could finally feel that it’s really friday. Finally Friday again.
So there goes Chem SPA and Physics test as well.

I remember Mr N being worried about the class being stressed. Hah.
But when he sort of asked why, we couldn’t really say anything.
And he sounded well, very assured with much faith that the teachers Ms N and Mr C could produce classes with good results for Physics.
Adding on that Ms N pushes alot.

Actually the stress can be managed when it’s put off once in a while.
But it’s the fatigue everything’s bringing.
Usually homework comes at full force on Thursdays.
This week it all came in the first day.

I’m just glad there’s no more SPA to worry about.
What’s coming next is English orals I believe.

Oh and I’d like to just clear up some things about comments.
It’s not necessary to type in your email.
Just the name will do.
And also, once you’ve pressed “Submit Comment”, I believe you don’t see it on the site straight away.
This is because I’ll have to approve it first.
And since it is so, you can tell me if you don’t want your comment to be shown and you can just leave a message or anything of that sort.
Yupppppppp.

Now I’m hesitating to go swimming laterr.
Aye.

 

Sweet late nights. :D

Tell me why I still can’t believe I wore a Cheongsam in school today.
But at least I didn’t back out!
And and and and. Despite bad hair day like everyday, the day was quite fun.
Lessons after were the spoilsport of course.

The idea of the Chinese gang was amusing.
Since there were only 4 in class who were wearing the cheongsam.
Alicia couldn’t believe I was wearing it either.
Rawwwwr.

But that’s beside the point.
Everybody looked pretty pretty today in their costumes.
Mmmmm.

Chinese Listening Comprehension tomorrowwwwwwww.
Make sure you dig your ears till they are clean of wax.
Just don’t make your ears bleed.
Then remember your IC and/or/I-don’t-know-which-so-just-bring the blue paper.
I forgot what it’s called.

When both my parents are out working, I get no food at home.
And I don’t want to cook since I’m lazy to wash up.
I don’t want my mom to do the washing for me either.
Hmmm.
Anyone wanna get me dinnerrrrr? :D