I don’t mind being an Elephant heehee.

The past two days have been really lovely.
My friends are so sweet, so fantastic. :D

It all started out on Friday.
The day I ponned my first lecture, hahaha, but I’m not complaining!
Partially sneaked into ‘No strings attached’ at GV plaza after school.
Partially because I think they’ll let me in if I’m just 1 day away from being 18.
But my friends sure had their way into getting everyone a ticket hehe.
Anyway, they really planned something, and I was really touched and grateful.
They tried to trick me up till the end lor!
Remember Natasha saying, “Aiyo, what are they doing?” before everything happened.
But they’re all really just so sweet.
I’m thankful. :D
I’ll always remember all that happened at the corner of that Starbucks.

Then Saturday came and my choir friends all made the full day of choir a lot more bearable.
Thankful for the hugs.
Everyone burst out singing at the caf and they didn’t let me run away rawr.
But the sound resonated in the caf, sounded so beautiful, and it made me really happy.
I can still remember how awkward it felt to be the only girl wanting to play basketball.
It’s interesting to watch the guys play though so not bad. :B

Spent the rest of the day with FYYYYY!

I love the sunflower, I named it Pretty because it’s so pretty. :D
Talked about anything and everything.
Was so happy to be able to see FY again and to spend 26th with her.
Hi FY, you’re waaaawesome and I can’t be more thankful for you, and for everything you’ve done for me. <3

I was really disappointed with myself when I didn’t manage to thank everyone by night time because I fell asleep.
But I’d still like to thank everyone who made my birthday so special, who were so lovely and who I’m really thankful for.
Thanks for the gifts, surprise, card, songs, greetings, flower and most importantly, thank you for you!

Thanks for being part of my day!

Love all of you! <3

 

I might be a little hazy

It’s midweek!
It’s been a little crazy.
Just really, tiring, insane, yet there’s that bit of fun.

Cca sign up day went pretty well today, seeing the response from the juniors.
Sucks that gastric caught up with me though.

Anyway, I was the first at the music room today.
I wasn’t sure of what I should do.
No one was there.
It was just me, tables, chairs, the turquoise walls, and a few pianos.
I chose to sit at the piano.
Opened it in hope that I could play a tune.
Not that the simple tunes wouldn’t come to me, but I didn’t have a tune a little more complex than the really simple ones.
I was quite intimidated by the black and white keys staring at me too.
Sigh, I wish I could play the piano.
I want to learn rawr.
I shall, and will be able to play something next time.
Must must must must for self fulfillment. :B

Alright, I’m exhausted.

Happy Birthday to all!
(It’s ren ri!)

PS, I think my friends are awesome. Can’t be this strong without them. :D

 

Don’t forget reality.

I don’t deny that I do online gaming.
To some, it means I have no life.
Some may also think that it’s pointless and meaningless.

However, that depends on how much time you spend on gaming, and what the game means to you.

I’ve been gaming since I was young, under the influence of my brother, I think.
I have played Gunbound, Wolfteam, Counter Strike, 02jam, Audition, Maple, Diablo, Trickster and maybe more.
Some I played for long term while others (e.g. Maple), I barely played for a week.
Long term would probably mean I stuck with the game for at least almost or more than a year.

What’s fun though, is not just the game itself.
It’s the people you meet.

In real, I feel like an anti-social.
I admit, I don’t know how to make friends.
Not unless I know of a common topic and we grew to know each other, if not, I just feel that it’s difficult to make conversation and I struggle.
I don’t like it because it’s really uncomfortable.
Here’s also where I grew to be comfortable on my own.

But yet on the net, I don’t feel that way.
It’s as if it’s easier to open up.
And I’ve met all kinds of people before, most of them, the really nice ones.
Most of them make you think.
While some just stay for awhile and leave, there are the ones that stay.

My online friends do mean something to me.
If I’m not wrong, most of them are older than me or around my age.
They have had so much more experiences in the working world, etc. So when I talk to them, it’s always enlightening.
I feel that I’m learning something new each time.
I like how that works.
With others, there are the happy conversations as well.
The one’s that make you laugh at your pixel screen.
The one’s that make your day.
These all mean something.

I don’t regret gaming, because I’ve met really wonderful people.

But I guess what I think I have grown to learn is, what’s online should more often than not, just remain online.
And I guess I’m keeping it as that.

 

I just wanted you to know.

There was a special spark to today.
It just felt different.

It’s the last day of school, finally.
And thank god it’s friday!
I’ve KO-ed the whole week, it feels horrible.
Though the holidays can’t be true holidays for me, I hope I’ll be disciplined enough to do what I need to do.

There’s no denying that some classmates won’t be in the same class as us next year already.
And it’s just so, sad.
We always wanted to graduate together.
And I’m going to miss them so much.
The times we become silly and lame.
The times we just laugh at ourselves or anything.
These bittersweet times were priceless.

Ahhh.
I’m relieved that school term has finally ended this year.
It was such a struggle.
But I just wished time would stop now.
And it obviously can’t.

I don’t feel ready for all that’s to come.

All in all, though bittersweet, the school term did end nicely.
I’m thankful for that.

 

Greatness is within.

These few days more or less on my own made me realise quite a few things.
I had the time to just Stop.

The time spent with old friends that day, made me see how they could enjoy school.
They talk about school with a smile.
They’ve got so much to talk about school.
What about me?

It’s time to be honest with myself.
I know I don’t like school.
I hate school.
But to some, when they get to know that, they think nothing of it.
Yes, initially, I thought nothing of it.
However as time went on, it became clearer and clearer to me.
I’m not fit for a college.
Isn’t it too late for this?
Sounds pathetic doesn’t it?
Some think I had a personal reason for being where I am today.
But I don’t.
I don’t have a reason for being where I am.
I just had no where to go.
No where to go, then.

After all these have been said, it does sound quite, discouraging.
But I’m going to fight against myself.
I’ll try.
And I’ll end this journey well.
I hope to prove myself wrong.

All these have to begin with a will.
Will I be up to it?

Just one more thing.
I love my family. I love my friends.
Because it’s quite overwhelming but I know, that I can never be here without them.

 

Priceless lunch.

Guess who I met today!

After about a whole year (Not counting Speech Day), we finally met up with each other!
We met an Ion Orchard.
Honestly, that place is nice, but not nice.
I think I’m one of the weirdest person, but I just try not to go to Orchard most of the time.
It’s an acl thing.
Okay so maybe that place is nicer than not nice.
But I don’t like seeing people I know when I’m out.
In the first one hour I was at Ion, I already saw 6 people I knew.
I have to apologize that I’m such a (I don’t know what, anti-social maybe).
To some others, it’s no big deal seeing someone you know out, and it might be one of the loveliest things.
But to me, I just, don’t quite like it.
Unless it’s someone I’m comfortable with.
That’d make my day.

But alright, that’s besides the point!

Had lunch together with Claire, Evelyn and Shirlene.
You know how people say its difficult to forget how others make you feel?
While having lunch, it was like going back in the years where we would go for breaks together.
It reminded me of the times we’ve spent together, be it laughing, being there for one another or anything else.
Maybe what I meant was it was like going back in the years where you know, they were just there, behind me where I sat in class.
Mmm.
So we talked talked talked about what has been happening in our different schools.
Of course, gossiping too, hahah, and ranted about the unhappy times.

It felt like we were walking different paths, like we’re all growing old, deciding what we want to do in future.
Don’t you find it scary as the years past?
Time is merciless.
Sigh.

We left the restaurant after a long long while and went to walk around.
The day ended early when Claire left because she still had something on.

I hope we get to meet again soon!
(MARINA BARRAGE TO FLY KITE!)
Only after I meet the people I miss, do I realise how much I missed them.
Ah, all the awesome people.
I had a great time today!

 

Might not be in time.

I’ll be back tomorrow!

Just wanted to say,
BON VOYAGE to those going on the China trip which flight is tomorrow!
Letisha and Chloe to be specific.
Hope they’ll have tons and tons of fun. :D

 

Loosen the strings alittle

Hello.
Rapture was awesome.
Jiahui and the dance society did a good job! B)
I liked the nice nice umbrella heh.

Supper at KAP was awesome too.
It was my first time there.
Letisha Xiaofei Xiaowei Nigel and Deren were really really hilarious.

Thank God Letisha’s sister got me home.
It was 0118.

I opened my door.
My mom was sitting on the sofa frowning.
Sigh,
Do you smell it?

Trouble.

 

Meat Patty.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, NERISSA! :D

 

She was going to make me cry

Nerissa Tay choonlinggggg….. ):
i know this is really random, but i really really really miss you, and all the st margs peeps.
and the gossips in the morning.
and all the times when i thought i couldn’t make it
and you would encourage me with a note every morning.
and the chocolates
and the talks
and the smell. HAHAHA.
and i really mis…s everything so much i feel like crying now.
maybe it’s because tomorrow is monday.

Because I miss life at st margs too.
And yes, maybe the fact that tomorrow is monday is equivalent to a whole new week of torture. :/

 

That special night,

Alright I’m here I’m here.
I felt quite excited blogging about the 19th and 20th but not until I got afraid I didn’t have the words to express what I really want to best.
And yeah that’s my problem, sentences too long just like the one above. :(

Mmmm.

On the day of prom, as I’ve said, not too much excitement, alittle apprehensive.
It got worst as prom was nearing, because of the hairdresser.

I felt my blood boiling.
I didn’t want to continue with the day then.
Well having gone into some random salon, I strongly believe I got the inexperienced hairdresser to do my hair for me.
I didn’t book her lor, I had an appointment with the other lady! *Sulks.
Even my mom agreed with me.

But anywayyy, let’s skip the bad parts.
Because that includes the part where I got ‘lost’, and my dad wasn’t on time like he said he’d be.

So besides the point, after checking into the hotel, four of us, Claire, Evelyn and FY were sort of late because it was getting late then.
But of course when we eventually get there, they’d still be people later than us.
It was cool yknw, being different shades of purple. :D

When I reached I felt abit, out of place.
Didn’t know why but it was just a feeling.
After all I didn’t feel very comfortable.
Looked around too see all the pretty pretty ladies.
Was hoping time flew and we could head back to room 1114.

I remember very well, how Yunye was hiding, ahem with her clutch that made her look like she was squeezing her ahems in photographs.
And how the table was so noisy, we werent listening to the Emcees.
And how MunYee had heels so high I didn’t know how she was running them.
We were one hungry table, hah.
Something quite significant, was when the whole table disappeared to take photos with Ms N before she left.
Together with Ms S that is.
I’ll miss all her stories.
I kinda miss school already.
The times the class shared laughter or anything else.
Don’t you?

A pity laoshi probably left straight after prom, couldn’t get a photo with her with Claire.

Come to think of it, I can’t believe only one week has passed after Os!
Feels like a month or something.

Food was alright.
I loved the prawns. B)
And table 16 went for orange juice instead of tea.
Oh do you know about the weird waiter!
Heard from Yunye that while he was leaning in to get a plate off the table, she felt him shaking.
I thought, that couldn’t be for real.
It’s just taking a plate off!
Who knew, when I asked him to take a table photo for us later, his hands were shaking too.
Maybe he’s new, or something must be terribly wrong. ._.

Dance session at the end felt more like phototaking session.
I’m sorry I didn’t appreciate the games that were in between dinner though.
Doesn’t really go together for me.
Took photos with the gorgeous ladies before heading back to the Pan Pacific Orchard.

The trip back was funny.
The ball of my foot was aching nuts.
It slipped my mind to remove my heels while sitting down for dinner.
While we groaned and struggled, at least we made it back to the hotel by the back just in time before this man locked the doors.

Here’s to the awesome people who spent the night with me.

We were in time to catch American’s next top model too, hahaha.
And I was the last the bathe, though I thought FY wasn’t going to let it happen. :X

So much for not wanting to sleep that night, I was starting to get tired.
My eyes felt sore from the dryness of my contacts previously.
The bed and aircon just made me too comfortable.
Anddd, while struggling to read the scribbles of the night where it was my communication with FY, Evelyn and Claire had their crazy moments before bedtime.
It was really amusing but thinking of it now still makes me smile.

I settled for the night in the end.
But I really should have just taken the floor please!
FY’s a light sleeper, why did I forget about that.
And through the night, I was shiveringgg.
It’s not everyday I sleep at 15 degrees celsius.
After heading to the toilet once, I went back to bed, about to be a popsicle.
Had difficulty going back to sleep but as I said.
Tired.
So I did in the end, and wasn’t aware of the spasmodic what do you call that, yah.

And and and you know!
Everytime I shifted my position, I realised I’m on a colder spot. ):
The blanket was nice heavy and thick but wasn’t able to keep me warm.
Guess with homeostasis (haha), my body temperature did more or less remain constant.

When I finally really woke up, I saw FY sitting at the study table.
So I decided I should get up too.
Nice to have company.
Went to wash up and my eye bags were horrible.
I remember I had alittle allergic reaction near my eyes after removing my make up the night before.
But it wasn’t there anymore, thank god.

Claire and Evelyn were still asleeeep.

We explored the hotel andddddd,

I like that photo.
But I know she likes the other.

The breakfast one!

I was hungry so we went back to get wallets and breakfast for the rest.
Evelyn was awake.
I think she woke Claire up when we left, :X

After breakfast was time for pictures!
I have to say, toilet’s really good with all the mirrors.

Here goes,

I think Claire was talking to me.
Anddddd,

So cute right.
They felt like my sisters.
It felt like we were taking family photos. :D

I left early with FY since I was afraid of coming home to see that my dad’s all angry and my mom would get into trouble.
But what can you say.
Those were awesome hours.

I love love love you guys. :D