Crawling out of this phase.

It’s been an eventful week.
First was service learning, then cross country and today, results day!

I felt that service learning was meaningful, though I pretty much wished we could have done more.
It’s also the day you realise how awesome Mr P is and I think s24 is really too blessed to have him as our CT. :B

Had class breakfast before heading to Pipit Road to execute our My Big Sweep Project.
We were there to clean houses for people who need it.
It was disheartening knowing that the granny didn’t really want all of us to help her clean up.
We weren’t allowed to use water to clean her floor nor were we allowed to move her items, as she insisted.
We could only do a minimum and there was so much more to be done!

It was my first experience in a 1 room flat, with bed bugs, faced with not-so-pleasant conditions.
Glad we did what we could still.
I vividly remember the time we went a little crazy and started singing songs while cleaning the toilet.
It was a fun experience, we just kept spamming Cif in the toilet (toilet warriors, we are!) and had cif spurted on our faces.
I accidentally knocked the bottle into the toilet bowl too hee.

Had class lunch after too.
Couldn’t believe all that we went through but it was worthwhile and such a valuable experience.
It was a good day!
I woke up the next day with a butt ache though I don’t know why!

Cross country was just amusing, heehee.
First aiders, alright! ;)

Results day was overwhelming.
Sitting at the back of the hall and watching my seniors await their results was just results day in smss all over again.
Just that it’s more crucial now because the A level cert is determining our future.
Sigh, thinking that it will be what I’m going through next year is really.. I don’t feel ready.
Happy for my seniors who have done well, knew they could do it! It’s just so crazy when you see them with 90 rank-points asidoahweojfns, Howww did they!
It was scary, nerve wracking, but yet inspiring.
Hard work perseverance determination goals balance, come on everyone let’s go!

We got back our Chinese results too.
Started feeling anxious towards the end and I really didn’t know what to expect.
I’m satisfied though and I’m really happy for my class!
So thankful for laoshi, really, really, really.
She’s the besttttt!
“1, 2, 3, XIE XIE LAO SHI!”
I think laoshi was touched. :)

All right, my eyes are so dry they are screaming for oxygen.
TGIF! I hope you had a good week! :)

 

Once a fool, always a fool.

It’s past midweek, and I don’t feel so.
My weeks are dragged longer now that I have practices on Saturdays.
It doesn’t make me feel better knowing that from the Saturday after this coming Saturday, practices are full-day.

I’ve been sleeping with my hair wet (again) for the past three nights and that really, still, and always sucks.
Sigh.

Went to school with dread knowing we had to do charades on stage.
But felt better when more people were dragged into it hahaha.
And I guess it wasn’t as bad as I expected it to be.
They were awesome.

Had 2.4 time trial today too.
I took from Monday till before PE just now to prepare myself mentally.
It’ll be quite cool if I had a machine to check my brain activity while I was running, so many things were running through my head.
I wanted to really push myself so I psycho-ed myself.
Tuned out of the fear of others as they mentioned it.
Tried to visualise myself running well.
Told myself that it doesn’t matter if I die after the run I just have to run run run run run run.
The other times I ran, I tend to panic inside whenever my breathing became more rapid.
I’m always afraid of dropping and that limits me.
It’s because I have fainted before, I’ve always taken long to cool down from my run and if I haven’t I get those dizzy spells that make me feel like I’ll faint.
And that time I fainted, I was alone. I was afraid.

I feel proud of myself for how I ran today.
All that was in my head was,”For all the things I love, I have to run. I must never stop and not slow down. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this.”
I hope I can continue like that.

Ended with service learning briefing at paya lebar.

Long days. Never-ending homework. Tired eyes. Aching body. Noise in the head. Worries. Thoughts. Hopes. Wishes. Doubts.
Hi everyone, you aren’t alone and will never be.
Keep going keep goinggggg!

 

Can’t ask for more

It was half day today and cny celebrations in school were quite blah but yet quite okay at the same time.
Urrrrrgh, I really wish the class was as how it started. I want everyone back! :(

Had homeroom decorations and ended with the cny concert.
It’s so funny how we started out with no plan for our homeroom.
We only planned to spam angbaos so Eunice told us to bring lots of angbaos.
But guess what! We ended up one of the winning classes!
Heehee, this was our board design:

Had two other smaller boards but the pictures I took really cannot-make-it.
Decorating the class was pretty fun, I think the classs is awesomez when everyone works together.
There also this sense of humour we share and I like it that way! :B
I still laugh at myself when I remember the “There is love in this rabbit year!”, hahahaha.
Plus our ct is superb too!

It’ll be a long year ahead (somewhat) and I think our class will pull through because we have one another!
Heh heh.

 

Knots

I still can’t believe it but it’s time to live in reality.
I think I rarely do.
I’m flying tonight tonight tonight!
It’s more apprehension than excitement and at the end of the day I guess the apprehension will be deemed redundant.
It’ll be a crazy week ahead.
Are you looking forward to your crazy week?

In anycase, there was class lunch on Sunday!
That day was really quite insane too.
As posted previously, I woke up with an eye infection.
After I got off the computer after the posts, I laid in my bed and got too comfortable.
So I decided to sleep to rest those eyes.
Hah. Guessss what!
Before I went into deep sleep I imagined myself waking at one.
And then when I really woke up and checked my phone for the time, it was 1300!
I was all “omgomgomg how”, since we were supposed to meet at one.
Hello, I’m not the ridiculously late kinddd.
At first I did mention that I won’t go already but, Eugene and his mind game!
I went in the end, and I’m glad I did though I didn’t stay long.
I wasn’t feeling wellll, and so far only xiaowei knows why I think.
Yup so, this was us!

In anycase I’ll be back soon!

 

I heard them shouting your name.

I just felt like coming here before I get my second bath of the day, then coffee, then work (hopefully).
Don’t wanna fall asleep early.

Today was sports day.
When it was late in the afternoon, I was still feeling so happy that our combined class event won like first first first!
Though I knew I had a performance at night, I really didn’t want to let another sports day pass without cheering.
Previous years I couldn’t too, because choristers will check, heh.
This time I was screaming like crazyyyy.
Heh.

Before that the class keep telling the three guys,”better win okay!”
I even told them, not just win okay, must be first!
They said they will and look what they achieved. B)
Deren, Dilong, and Joseph did us proud.
Congrats, congrats!
Deren made a good lead and the gap was really big.
Then dilong continued it by running like mario, hahaha.
Then joseph chiong ah!

But of course, it’s also because 09s27 has powerful runners.

Eh and Joseph was so disappointed that tau huay was cancelled since many people had plans already.
Maybe we can have it if pe can’t be shifted tomorrow!
Hoho.

Anyway, good job to alll, (as long as I know you)!
I’m so mega proud of them.

And choir cip performance just nowwww.
It was not that bad for a start. :B

Oh and I wonder how the st margs band is doing at the esplanade now. :D

 

That special night,

Alright I’m here I’m here.
I felt quite excited blogging about the 19th and 20th but not until I got afraid I didn’t have the words to express what I really want to best.
And yeah that’s my problem, sentences too long just like the one above. :(

Mmmm.

On the day of prom, as I’ve said, not too much excitement, alittle apprehensive.
It got worst as prom was nearing, because of the hairdresser.

I felt my blood boiling.
I didn’t want to continue with the day then.
Well having gone into some random salon, I strongly believe I got the inexperienced hairdresser to do my hair for me.
I didn’t book her lor, I had an appointment with the other lady! *Sulks.
Even my mom agreed with me.

But anywayyy, let’s skip the bad parts.
Because that includes the part where I got ‘lost’, and my dad wasn’t on time like he said he’d be.

So besides the point, after checking into the hotel, four of us, Claire, Evelyn and FY were sort of late because it was getting late then.
But of course when we eventually get there, they’d still be people later than us.
It was cool yknw, being different shades of purple. :D

When I reached I felt abit, out of place.
Didn’t know why but it was just a feeling.
After all I didn’t feel very comfortable.
Looked around too see all the pretty pretty ladies.
Was hoping time flew and we could head back to room 1114.

I remember very well, how Yunye was hiding, ahem with her clutch that made her look like she was squeezing her ahems in photographs.
And how the table was so noisy, we werent listening to the Emcees.
And how MunYee had heels so high I didn’t know how she was running them.
We were one hungry table, hah.
Something quite significant, was when the whole table disappeared to take photos with Ms N before she left.
Together with Ms S that is.
I’ll miss all her stories.
I kinda miss school already.
The times the class shared laughter or anything else.
Don’t you?

A pity laoshi probably left straight after prom, couldn’t get a photo with her with Claire.

Come to think of it, I can’t believe only one week has passed after Os!
Feels like a month or something.

Food was alright.
I loved the prawns. B)
And table 16 went for orange juice instead of tea.
Oh do you know about the weird waiter!
Heard from Yunye that while he was leaning in to get a plate off the table, she felt him shaking.
I thought, that couldn’t be for real.
It’s just taking a plate off!
Who knew, when I asked him to take a table photo for us later, his hands were shaking too.
Maybe he’s new, or something must be terribly wrong. ._.

Dance session at the end felt more like phototaking session.
I’m sorry I didn’t appreciate the games that were in between dinner though.
Doesn’t really go together for me.
Took photos with the gorgeous ladies before heading back to the Pan Pacific Orchard.

The trip back was funny.
The ball of my foot was aching nuts.
It slipped my mind to remove my heels while sitting down for dinner.
While we groaned and struggled, at least we made it back to the hotel by the back just in time before this man locked the doors.

Here’s to the awesome people who spent the night with me.

We were in time to catch American’s next top model too, hahaha.
And I was the last the bathe, though I thought FY wasn’t going to let it happen. :X

So much for not wanting to sleep that night, I was starting to get tired.
My eyes felt sore from the dryness of my contacts previously.
The bed and aircon just made me too comfortable.
Anddd, while struggling to read the scribbles of the night where it was my communication with FY, Evelyn and Claire had their crazy moments before bedtime.
It was really amusing but thinking of it now still makes me smile.

I settled for the night in the end.
But I really should have just taken the floor please!
FY’s a light sleeper, why did I forget about that.
And through the night, I was shiveringgg.
It’s not everyday I sleep at 15 degrees celsius.
After heading to the toilet once, I went back to bed, about to be a popsicle.
Had difficulty going back to sleep but as I said.
Tired.
So I did in the end, and wasn’t aware of the spasmodic what do you call that, yah.

And and and you know!
Everytime I shifted my position, I realised I’m on a colder spot. ):
The blanket was nice heavy and thick but wasn’t able to keep me warm.
Guess with homeostasis (haha), my body temperature did more or less remain constant.

When I finally really woke up, I saw FY sitting at the study table.
So I decided I should get up too.
Nice to have company.
Went to wash up and my eye bags were horrible.
I remember I had alittle allergic reaction near my eyes after removing my make up the night before.
But it wasn’t there anymore, thank god.

Claire and Evelyn were still asleeeep.

We explored the hotel andddddd,

I like that photo.
But I know she likes the other.

The breakfast one!

I was hungry so we went back to get wallets and breakfast for the rest.
Evelyn was awake.
I think she woke Claire up when we left, :X

After breakfast was time for pictures!
I have to say, toilet’s really good with all the mirrors.

Here goes,

I think Claire was talking to me.
Anddddd,

So cute right.
They felt like my sisters.
It felt like we were taking family photos. :D

I left early with FY since I was afraid of coming home to see that my dad’s all angry and my mom would get into trouble.
But what can you say.
Those were awesome hours.

I love love love you guys. :D

 

We will still be, friends forever.

Main highlight of yesterday was Class bbq.
I’d say, I’ll regret if I didn’t go.

Funny how the weather was fine over at my place, I was thinking it’d mean we’d have a great bbq.
But going over to Good luck garden was another story.
The sky was dark where it could rain anytime.
So we tried to finish cooking everything but there were still stuff uncook.
And because we tried to cook quickly, we had a really big fire. :B
Lightning was striking and thunder was roaring, it was time to head to the function room.
As they said, we have alot of potential difference, some more we’re under the tree yknw, have high chances of lightning striking at us.

Well, we weren’t exactly under a tree but yeah.
It was funny how we screamed, whether because of the fire, lightning, thunder, or husband and wife.
Charades was, hahahaha.
Uploading the videos on youtube.
It took forever to upload on fb, so I gave up.

I was actually expecting lesser people to come, but all the better right.
And Christine’s mother makes one of the best cheesecakes. B)
If you didn’t go, you better regret now now now.

I’m gonna miss alot of people.
Though being in our class, we get labelled as nerds, but I think we’re more of a fun bunch.
At least, we’re nerds that know how to have fun.
Makes a difference.

At the end of the day, though exhausted and sticky, I was contented.
My white shirt was gray by the way.

Mmm.
Actually.
Being in 4/6 wasn’t that badddd.

 

Counter Change.

GRADUATION!

It was a bittersweet experience. And like any other where I make sure I toughen my skin up. (Don’t ask me why, I don’t really know.)
These 4 years in SMSS has had its significant impacts on my life.
From the teaching staff, to the students, to the non-teaching staff.
Just imagine dents on a car which cannot be undone.
Or if you’d like, grades on the report book would mean the same.
It’s not on plasticine, which can always be molded back to what it originally was.

Suddenly I don’t know how to go on.

The teachers, especially the ones that has taught me the last two years, were a blessing to have.
And they always have two sides.
One’s for classroom lessons, the other’s the much softer side.
Being told that this year’s batch of graduating classes were the ones that impacted the teachers to such an extent that they did that much for us, I’m even more contented and touched even if I am smaller than 1% of the entire batch.
It was a real pity that Ms N couldn’t make it to school since she was on medical leave.
And I’m just alittle, yknw, that we didn’t manage to take a class photo on our last day of school.
How can right. Like that where can!
Sigh.

Feels funny leaving a place where, for a decade, I’ve been seeing some same old people in school.
Who knows maybe for the next 2 years to come, I’ll still see them.
And it’s comforting to just receive a smile.
Just say Hi or Bye.
It makes a difference.

As for the closer friends, gosh you guys are so awesome.
And I really mean it.
I won’t name names. Because if you know it, you’ll feel it.
Theres this special thing in you guys that make you guys extraordinary.
And thanks for your never-ending encouragements and presence, for always being there even when I didn’t ask you to.
For reaching out a hand, when I needed one.
And I have to say, for pulling me out of my skin, because I needed it.
It’s alright if you guys didn’t understand that.
It wasn’t a bad thing.
But what you guys really then need to know is that you’ve been very special and unforgettable, and I’ll really really miss all of you.

As for both the seniors and juniors in choir, they’ve been yet another significant group in my life.
They, too, have helped me be who I am today.
Actually I need to really give thanks to Ms Grace.
Tell you honestly, she was the teacher that impacted my life the most.
She was the one who made sure I kept my eyes off the floor.
That was my stepping stone to becoming who I am today.
Then with everyone else’s encouragements, I am who I am today.

To the juniors who still think I’m scary, it’s no wonder they think I’ve split personality.
Michelle called me the choir monster the other day long time ago. Hah.
They picture me as the fierce fierce one who can’t be friendly.
Guess thats how you need to be on the job eh.
But I’m not not not scary and I won’t eat anyone up.
So I’ll go visit after my papers and make make make sure I take photos with Nicole and Natalie.
They two are the sweetest ones.

How could I have almost forgot about the classsssss!
I’ll miss having nerds around.
And I’m thankful you guys are openly nerds, hahaha.
But I’m glad to have seen the moments which obviously show that we’re not just nerds.
We know how to have fun.
We know the moments to be serious.
And though it’s intimidating to be around you guys, I still have this love for the class all the same.
Let’s hope we live up to our teacher’s expectations and make them prouddd. :D

Credits go to the teachers and friends who have painted my Secondary School life so beautifully.
Especially FY.
The rest rest rest, know that you’re part of it too.
Thanks FY for the note, Claire for the rose, Evelyn for the hug and Yunye for the countless Goodbyes.
♥

 

Seventy thousand eight hundred and nine.

The past two days have been something special.
Probably won’t get to have days like these in a long time.
Maybe just yesterday.

I’ll talk about the two days on separate posts thoughhhh.

Friday was sweet.
There’re lesser times this year to feel the St Margaret’s spirit.
When it’s there, I think it’s great.
I didn’t feel it on Sports day. Heh.
Nor Racial harmony or any other stuff like that.

National day celebrations was best when it came to the mass sing-a-long.
That’s where it goes wild, and just what we always look forward to.
Though under the hot sun for a change this year, I thought it was about just as awesome as other times in the hall.
We didn’t just sing, we screamed.
And I was busy poking and disturbing Jaani too. :X
As the celebrations slowly came to an end, it made me feel alittle sour.
I don’t know.

Just because it’s the people we have around in school now.
Reality speaks.
I won’t see them as often as I’ve these years in Secondary school, nor speak to them, or even nod when we walk by.
We won’t have our usual jokes and open talks about boyfriends and other girls stuff.
And it came to me too. Little people have the same sense of humour.

Sigh, but in anycase, it’ll be good till the end.
I hope it would before it all ends.
And it’ll end well.
Well enough.

Attended farewell after which.
I admit I was upset over some stuffs then.
And it’ll probably be only right if I say sorry.
I really couldn’t help it because.. I’ll not say it.
But I’m thankful for having farewell, nonetheless.
For the effort put into it.
Especially especially want to thank Nicole and Natalieee.
Super honey-fied juniors.
I promise Natalie, I’ll go back just to take photos with you okay. Cross my heart. :D

Guess, guess, guess, guess what was after!
Hoho.

Waited for FY first, while I accompanied Jaani as she did work.
Here, I made a promise to Jaani too, that I’ll play neos with her some other other timee.

But here’s what was after,

Uppppppppppppppp with FY!

I think we were thinking about tickets even before it was August, knowing that it’ll be coming out on 070809.
But till the day before the movie then I realised we couldn’t get tickets early.
In addition! Booking tickets were.. $_$
There were so many people already from my class who was watchinggg on that day.
And maybe I should say, typically, I was really worried there wouldn’t be tickets.
There was though, good seats. :B

I absolutely love the movie.
And I can still hear Russell say,”Hi Mr. Fredrickson. Please let me in.”
Then Grumpy ol’ Carl says,”No,” slamming the door shut.
After a few seconds opening it again saying, “Ah, alright.”

I love the floating house.
The grape soda badge.
I loved how I didn’t know anything about the movie and even before it started I gave myself the last reminder, “No expectations! Think about nothing at all.” Heh.
It may sound stupid but I avoided any articles on Up, even the trailer.
So I knew nothing at all. :X

After the movie was buffet at Sakae.
Got me bloated which was alittle uncomfortable.
But yknw, I was really in a state of shock for a moment there.
My heart probably delayed a beat or something.

789 was more than words could speak.
More than pictures could say.

Absolutely beautiful.

 

Sweet late nights. :D

Tell me why I still can’t believe I wore a Cheongsam in school today.
But at least I didn’t back out!
And and and and. Despite bad hair day like everyday, the day was quite fun.
Lessons after were the spoilsport of course.

The idea of the Chinese gang was amusing.
Since there were only 4 in class who were wearing the cheongsam.
Alicia couldn’t believe I was wearing it either.
Rawwwwr.

But that’s beside the point.
Everybody looked pretty pretty today in their costumes.
Mmmmm.

Chinese Listening Comprehension tomorrowwwwwwww.
Make sure you dig your ears till they are clean of wax.
Just don’t make your ears bleed.
Then remember your IC and/or/I-don’t-know-which-so-just-bring the blue paper.
I forgot what it’s called.

When both my parents are out working, I get no food at home.
And I don’t want to cook since I’m lazy to wash up.
I don’t want my mom to do the washing for me either.
Hmmm.
Anyone wanna get me dinnerrrrr? :D

 

Slaves to words that slip out.

My mistake, private posts wouldn’t be visible.
I was probably, too silly then.

Thursdays are actually bad days in school.
With many lessons that give many homework.
All the homework comes on thursday.
Then there’s still a need to cram for Biology test on Friday.
Geez. ):

So, so, who’s wearing what on Racial Harmony!
Everyone was saying the “Last-year-already-just-wear-lor.” kinda thing.
Then the “If-you-wear-I-also-wear” thing starts.
Hah.

I was thinking, if I really wear something, I’ll get the Malay costume one.
After all there are already people who mistake me for a Malay even when I have chinese foolscap in front of me.
But first, will I really wear it?
I’ll need to borrow from someone and everything.
Hmmmmm.
Tell me if I should.
I was wondering if it’s a acl-thing to just back out in the end.
But it’s quite different now okay.
And I’ll discuss with my Mummy too. :B

Oh yes and I just have to say this here.
YUNYE! You’re not ugly okay. I’m so sorry about the typo I left.
I was leaving fb in a hurry yesterday.
You’re not. not not not not not ugly.
So stop saying it alreadyyyyy!