I have my first attempt at mac and cheese today. No pretty photos and I wasn’t feeling too sure about it. It felt like quite a bit of work, compared to say an apple crumble. Woke up early all excited about the cooking. I woke at 2 plus thinking it was 6 plus, that was how excited I felt, haha.

Anyway, I’ve only eaten mac and cheese once in my life and it was this year that I did. I remember not liking what I tasted because it was too milky for my liking and I can’t take milk. But mac and cheese is a well known comfort food and I always wanted to try making it to though I don’t know much about it and don’t know what it should taste like. Bought ingredients yesterday which I believe amount to a good 20 plus. I felt my attempt was a little bland, though cheesy enough. Like something was missing. I wasn’t sure if it was thyme which I substituted, or somewhere else which went wrong. But nonetheless, I’m happy this mac and cheese did satisfy 2 people still hehe. My mom and Chinghwee thought it was okay. But next time will be better!

I’ve had a lot of good food this weekend. Starting with Nandos (We were supposedly going to have Manhattan that night but the queue was too crazy), Oreo cheesecake, GongCha, Claypot rice, Mars bar. It’s not exactly all good food but I guess favourite foods. Got a satisfied stomach but a not so happy wallet, hahaha. A good short weekend despite everything or anything.

But well, I kinda wish for better weekends that are more comforting. Then again, maybe I’m asking too much.

Sigh.

When I don’t know what to say, I realised that I’ll let out a short laugh. But I don’t know if people realise that I’m not laughing because I found something funny. Instead I did to try and rid slight awkwardness and lost for words. I didn’t think my lady boss or colleagues will start saying that to me. At least, everyone was more or less mentally prepared that I will be leaving by the end of June from the start. I believe they will start looking for a new admin soon enough and I’ll be passing on my duties. It feels quite cool.

I don’t know how I really feel about leaving. One thing for sure, I’ll miss talking crap with Sofiah and laughing at nonsense. I’ll miss making fun of each other, sharing about our lives whether past or present, and I’ll miss how she says “wang ba dan”. And and and, I’ll also miss giggling at how my colleagues are obviously sarcastic to some business partners or clients.

Oh well. It’s a reality that I have to leave and will leave eventually to study. I knew and know that, that’s why though I may not bear to leave (just because of the people but the job is still mundane), I don’t feel as sad. I’m excited to learn new things honestly. Regarding that, I hope all goes well. I’m quite sure I’m bound to struggle but in this case, if there’s a will, there’s a way.

Will make the best out of the last few days though I’m quite sick of the routine.

I met FY last night at marina square after work for dinner and it’s just always same but different. I don’t know if anyone would get how that feels. But it felt so good to see and talk to her again. Food was good seat was nice and everything. It’s times like these that make me realize how much I really miss her.

Time may always be short but it’s always short and still awesome.
I went home and knocked out at night. At least there were no bad dreams despite the choppy sleep.

Here’s to a ‘new’ week. Hope the week goes well and passes quick. We’re just about at the last week of May!

I dare not ask when that’ll be exactly though I think I’ve been trying to prepare myself mentally for months already. I try to comfort myself with ‘It’s not like he’s going abroad to study’ or with ‘He’ll be back soon.’ I mean. I know it’s just a temporary thing and I know I’ll get through it somehow. It’s just an awful thought and a period of insecurity.

I don’t know why I’m putting this here.