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I met FY for a brief few hours yesterday.
I don’t like how it makes me feel knowing that she can’t even remember when she last slept proper.

But it still felt great finally seeing her again.
And I usually walk away knowing there’s just still so much more I want to tell her about.
I don’t know if leaving it till next time will make me forget.

Whatever the case, do your best for submission!
Thanks for the invite to your family’s dinner but I’m sorry I won’t be able to make it.
And and and, I really hope you get well soon.

(Your kiwi armor needs maintenance checks! In the sense you should review how you’re treating yourself, sigh.)

Can’t stay home.

Koalas sleep up to 18 – 22 hours a time.
And currently I wish I could do just that because having nothing to do sort of kills.
Then the thoughts in the head just start to bring you down.

The dolphin who lost her tail.

Learnt about Winter through the movie Dolphin Tale.
I just felt she brings hope to many many things.

Happy cny.

I find it amusing how, there’s no food during any other day at home, but just way too much food during chinese new year.
I don’t like how much I ate today. And it makes me feel uncomfortable.

In anycase, the first day of cny didn’t go too bad. Not as bad as I expected it to be.

Cny was really much quieter this year, I’m not sure if that’s a good thing or if that’s what all of us wants.
It just somehow didn’t feel right. It felt unbelievable.
Didn’t exactly have new year clothes this time round too but I guess, it doesn’t matter.

I don’t know what else to say.
A simple quiet satisfying cny. I think we all can’t ask for more in anycase.

Hope everyone else is having a good day as well.

Firsts.

Yesterday was quite a day.
A day I almost lost my life, and my first experience at a bar.

So, while leaving home to meet Chinghwee for dinner first, I was walking my usual, maybe a little slower because I was typing a text.
Just that without checking if there were cars behind me, I took the pavement for pedestrians instead of just walking on the road.
And then, BAM. A vase fell just about 1.5 meters away from me, on the road, where I used to walk just about almost everyday.
It seems like there was a loud thud and shattering simultaneously.
It fell really quickly so it must have been from quite high up the building.
Hey, my estate has up to 40 storeys. I just can’t imagine, what would have happened if I was walking a little faster, on the road.

No one was around, and I didn’t know if I should continue up ahead. I looked up and couldn’t see anyone/ anything. I think I stood stunned for quite sometime before just running up ahead.
My heart was just beating really quickly for quite a while.
But really, what if it did hit me?
What happens next?
All those questions were in my head after that incident.

Eventually, I more or less put that away from my mind when we met up with Joey, Mandy, Mark and Sinyee.
And well because I don’t drink, only had a sip that didn’t taste too bad.
And yup. The day went quite fine.

The experience was interesting. And what I more or less expected.
It wasn’t sleazy.
Live bands made it just about impossible to talk.
But at the end of the day I’d say, it’s still not a place I’d go.
I’m not that type of girl.

Then we all headed back at the end of the day. Cab driver that drove us was nice. And yup. Was sent to my door after talking some downstairs.
What a day.

One week off.

Yesterday was the last day of work before we have off for chinese new year.
My brother continuously tells me how lucky I am to be able to work with them. And yes I know, I’m really lucky.

I guess my coworkers and boss are nice. They really take care of me and try to make me feel at home at work.
Couldn’t help it that during the first few days it’s just difficult to make the office feel like home.
I was always just worried of having to handle urgent matters and boss’s matters.
I always think of saying a prayer before every email I send, hoping I didn’t make any careless mistakes.

It’s not that the things I have to do are way difficult.
It’s just that it’s too easy to make careless mistakes.

Yesterday we all wore the company shirt and had company lunch at some buffet place.
The food was good. And we even had the yu sheng thing.
I got to know more about people and my coworkers sure like to tease me about chinghwee haha.
Though it was a half day work for most, I still headed back to finish up the last minute work.
And well, I am pretty glad I did. Because now work does feel more comfortable.

Couldn’t help but be more relaxed towards knock-off time and just chilling with the rest.
I still did my work, just was multi-tasking, heh.

I am thankful Sofiah chose me during the interview.
Thankful I made the right choice to say I’ll have the interview early the day I called.
She just thought “first come first serve”.
Though in the end she did add, “Or maybe you did convince me.”

Everyone’s nice and helpful.
I just hope I can be more familiarized with all that my job needs me to do and I just need to complete tasks faster.

One week off! Things are just too good already.

A tablespoon of dread

Fourth day at work tomorrow. Things are getting well, more, stressful.
My job more or less changed when I was moved from data entry to admin by the second day.
Things aren’t as easy now, and there’s suddenly a lot to learn. But of course, I’m always glad my senior will be there.
I’ll call her my senior because I don’t know how else to address her. She’s the one that interviewed me, decided to hire me, and the one I’m directly helping. A very nice and caring lady I’d say.

And well it’s going to be a whole week of work. Long hours. I sure hope I’ll be able to take it.
My legs have been hurting because of the shoes I wore. And it felt so bad that I got replacement shoes.

I’m not prepared to have less time for everything else.
But is all I can do hope that things remain the way they are?
Well of course, I’ll have to make sure I do my part too.

A good week please.
(Actually I’m just looking forward to the end of it, sigh)
And well, dreading chinese new year.
Never felt this way towards chinese new year before. It’s new. It’s going to stay.

Data entry

So, today will be my first day at work.
A little apprehensive (haha), I don’t know what to expect and being who I am, I just don’t like socially awkward situations.
It’s not like I’ve never been to the company before, so I get the rough feeling of what it’s going to feel like.

However, I remember on the day of the interview, when I entered the building, everyone was whispering as if wanting to know what I was there for, or I don’t know what else they could be wondering.

I hope the first day and the many days to come will go fine.

And I got wardrobe crisis. :(

An idle mind.

A lot of excitement for the secondary 4 students who will be receiving their O level results today, and that just reminds me that I’m an A level student who’s waiting for my results.
Amanda’s getting her results today and though I’m not exactly closeclose to her but you know, I was still really excited for her.
And on my part, I can’t deny that I kind of have high expectations of her knowing that she does take pride in her work and she does study.

Anyway on the day I collect my results, can someone just collect it for me?
Seriously, no matter how much I wished I just know it won’t be anything brilliant.
And you know, sometimes you just wished you didn’t have to face it.
Ah sigh.

Tried applying for some jobs today but it didn’t go so well.
Really hope to get a job soon so I pretty much have something to wake up to.

(Ah and I just had a timely reminder. Saw it at twitter: “My best is good enough.”)

Trashed immunity

There are moments I feel normal. And moments where I just don’t feel quite right.
Or is it that I’m really taking this long to recover.
I fell ill on Monday night. And I still don’t feel quite right up till today.

A half day out tires me out.
I don’t feel fit enough to really run and jump around.
I don’t sleep right after the first few days.
I feel like I’ve been sleeping far too much and I don’t like it one bit.
I don’t like waking up to nothing either, I was supposed to start job hunting but I came down with crap.

Sigh.

Happy New Year!

Hello, 2012.

I’ve had to good go with life for 2011. It’s been eventful, be it happy events, or not-so-good events.
On the last day itself, these events that made up the year, I believe, had their reasons for occurring. They helped me grow as a person. Get to know more about how things happen. To experience and understand new things. To learn and remind myself of the importance to be thankful and to treasure what I am given. And to learn the importance of taking care.

I am thankful for everyone that has made 2011 the way it is.
Classmates, FY, Chinghwee, and the family, including godsisters. Ah and cca mates.
(It’s in no particular order of course)
Each one has made their own impact on how 2011 went by, be it big or small.

I hope 2012 will be better in its own way.
More crazy things to get through, more experiences to encounter, more challenges to face.
Let’s go!

There will be other days.

I expected 31st to be different.
Yes it already was different but I guess I expected more. And I just didn’t expect my body to feel like it’s falling apart.

Spent the day with Chinghwee where we went cycling (despite almost deciding it’s a no go), and we were supposed to have a movie marathon.
The cycling plan finally held out from when we first planned it on 3rd December but at that time it was really a no go.
Unfortunately, my usual ‘illness’ got to me while we were cycling.
Dizzy spells. The bad ones.
I was really close to blacking out, I felt it. And I’m grateful I didn’t.
It came as a shock, since I really thought I was over the phase of having such dizzy spells.
I’ve been doing fine for quite some time already, sigh.
That made both of us uneasy and I just didn’t feel right.
But thank god too that I wasn’t alone.

Nevertheless, I’ve had a great day that was cut short because I wasn’t well.
Even my contact lenses didn’t let me off.
I guess this was just the way 2011 was supposed to end for me.

I can’t keep asking for more. So I’m just thankful, thankful, thankful.
And it truly was a beautiful day.

Delayed.

I am back!

Come to think of it now, the 10 days overseas seemed to have passed pretty fast.
But during the course of the 10 days, time dragged by.

Overall, this experience was interesting. But at the same time, not very comfortable.
That is probably because I didn’t understand tagalog.
And I didn’t feel as safe as I would in Singapore.

There were contrasting differences between the two countries that caught my eye the moment I landed in Manila on the 19th.
Very very few tall buildings. The wires hang above and outside. Beautiful scenery with the mountains. Rocky roads. In my opinion, distasteful traffic. Missing traffic lanes/ arrows. Left hand drivers. Not so clean air. People sleeping just about anywhere. Children roaming the streets. Cold cold nights that start early. It turns dark even before 6pm. It’s like the day starts earlier and the nights end later.
I can’t remember them all.
I may sound like I didn’t like my stay there.
But I guess it wasn’t exactly that I entirely didn’t like it, it just wasn’t too comfy and I was always out of comfort zone.
I experienced all the different weathers.
Wind that could blow me away. Seriously. Muddy ground because of the rain. Warm sunny days. Colder-than-aircon nights.

Ah can I say that I hate hate hate crickets.
The crickets there are huge. And I saw one right in front of me and freaked.

Some children stare at me. Like they’ve never seen a human like me before.
I eventually got used to it but I didn’t like it.
Well, I’m human too.
But I guess as my mom says, it’s probably because they have never seen me before and I am the fairest.
Some stare at me for more than one day.
They don’t quite care if I look at them staring even.
Hmmmm.

The more unforgettable moments were when I was pressured for karaoke and felt comfortable after awhile, the day we went to the amusement park and I felt I almost lost my life, and the trip to Tagaytay to view the smallest volacano.

I really am thankful for my relatives for being really accommodating to me.
And I guess I did learn that I am pretty spoilt and pampered.
But well. We have very different cultures. Different ways of living.
The people there are more loving, I’d say. They show they always care. And I guess that made me teary often. It was touching.

At the end of the day, I am glad I made it to this trip and Mom and I got there and back safely.

Now now, it’s about time the new year arrives.
The year did not fly by with all its events.
It’s been a good year. Great. Great year.
I’m thankful.